Thursday, June 02, 2005

Blue, Blah, Bummed

Don't really know why I'm writing this post. I guess just cause I'm feeling out of sorts and I have to vent. I don't know why I feel this way. I should be thrilled. I'm off my day job for a couple of months, I'm going on vacation next week. My knee is better. (Spent the day hopping around the house, popping pills and leaving a heating pad on it). Got some errands done. Nancy's agreed to make my business cards for Nationals. I've got some great ideas floating around in my head for the next book. Finished critiquing Jenna's historical--a great read and I can't wait to see it on the shelves someday!

But I can't finish my own book.

Don't know why. I've got more than half of it done and sent off to one of my critique partners. I LOVE Ethan and Grace and their story. I know how it ends, I know I've got rearranging and more writing to do.

But I can't finish my own book.

In all the years I've been writing, since that first completed manuscript was done back in sixth grade in 1983, I have never had this much trouble finishing a manuscript. I've always worked through the block and ultimately found my muse again. This time I'm even letting my characters tell the story, not forcing anything of my own in there.

But I STILL can't finish the book.


Michelle said...

I wonder if maybe something in the plot is headed in the wrong direction? Usually when I'm up against the wall and nothing I do will make the words come, I back up and see if I've taken the story into a corner.

Has your hero faced his worst fear and grown as a person? Your heroine? To me, the ending should make them face the thing that they're most frightened of and overcome it.

Good luck!!

Lexi said...

Thanks, Michelle. I think part of the problem is I know what has to happen, I just have to rearrange what I thought was going to happen. After a good night's sleep, I actually feel better this morning (afternoon?). I've just decided to do as much as I can before I go on vacation on Tuesday and then I'll put it away for a week or two and start working on my next one!