GGGRRRR. I had to stay at work today for the Valentine's Dance. (If I came home at any point after the workday and before the dance, I wouldn't have gone back.) After eating dinner, I had an hour to kill. So I sat in the computer lab and worked on Danger. One hour later, I had 2 pages of good, new material and I was in the middle of a brainstorming E-mail to my critique group. Guess what happened? I LOST IT ALL! Automatically at 6 p.m. the computers in our school shut down and erase absolutely everything. A warning would have been nice. Since I don't technically work on that campus, how was I supposed to know that would happen? And to think, my next step after my critique group E-mail was to E-mail my new pages to myself.
During the dance, I volunteered to be the hall monitor so I didn't have to interact with too many people. I was still ticked off about losing my writing. While I yelled for kids to stay out of the classrooms and to get out of the bathroom, I managed to handwrite as many of my previous notes as I could AND add another 2 pages.
The dance itself was really a success and we had so much parent help, it really wasn't any trouble. When I got home, I had a drink (yes, I needed a beer) and then a cup of tea. Then I came in here to check my E-mails. Guess what I got? Another book chewing from my CP. I love her dearly and I totally believe in her ability as an awesome CP, but what am I doing wrong? I honestly don't see it. I'm not worried, panicked or ready to throw in the writing towel. I'm...puzzled. At this point in my career, I think I should be getting better, closer to publishing. After her latest round of comments, I feel very confused. Am I regressing?
Ah well, I'm not going to stress about it. She's giving me more specific details tomorrow since she didn't want to hit me with everything at once. Maybe through our E-mails we can brainstorm what's going on with me and my manuscript. I'll let you know what we come up with.